pepper_kittens

I am sick of forcing myself to work as hard as I possibly can and never getting anything out of it for me. When is it going to be my turn?

I am pleased to report that my life is officially no longer in a state of emergency.

I am settling into uni now, and I'm pleased to report that I have yet to get lost. This is really remarkable for someone like me. I still haven't made any friends due to general shyness and awkwardness.

I am even studying. Which is just as well, seeing as I have a test tomorrow for philosophy.

It's still a state of emergency, but I am getting it under control.

Student finance people have been emailed

Second semester has been enrolled in

I tried to email studylink, but their question thing is being annoying. Oh well. I will ring them tomorrow, and try to get an appointment and/or some answers.

Tomorrow, I must:

Ring studylink
Visit studylink
Visit student finances

List of things to worry about:


1. My fees for uni are overdue
2. I am unlikely to get a student loan
3. This is likely to be because I am not enrolled for both semesters, but I don't really know for certain.
4. I now have to call Studylink and make an appointment to visit them
5. I also have to pick up my keyboard
6. I have a comedy show tomorrow night, where I am trialing new material
7. I have a comedy show the night after that, at a strange and unfamiliar place
8. I have 5 solid hours of class tomorrow, starting at 9am
9. My parents are yelling at me for the first four problems
10. I need to put more money on my bus card

I am going to explode. This would not have been an issue if I'd stuck with Unitec.

Things I need to do in order to alleviate worry:

Ring Studylink first thing tomorrow, catch the bus to uni if necessary. Or email them tonight. Or both

Speak to student finances about my predicament. Or email them tonight. Or both.

Enrol for the second semester, making a completely rushed and uninformed choice. Oh well. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

Pray

Beginning university is bloody confusing.

Enrolling in classes is downright labyrinthine.

Figuring out one's own timetable is NOT, I repeat NOT nearly as fun as it sounds. In reality, it is confusing and frustrating.

That is all.

But at least I know what I'm wanting to do.

Now that I sor t of have the World's Most Beautiful Man back, I've found out some stuff that makes me question whether or not I ever really did have/want him. I wish I could read minds. I wish people were simple. I wish the man I love didn't spend the whole new year touching and cuddling me only to go after another girl the very next day. I try to be sorry that she broke his heart, but, really, I got nothin'. I wish I had better man-picking skills. I wish I could control the way I felt.

Mostly, I wish he could understand how much I care about him and act accordingly.

I had this whole fairytale fantasy built up in my head about how everything would be, but in real life there's medical conditions and other interfering people and broken hearts and uneven feelings and people being irrational and scared. Amongst all the above, romance and pure, sincere love are pretty thin on the ground. I didn't know that The World Of Love would be like this. Honestly, I had no idea. Is there any way to avoid all the complicated drama? I have never been the sort to enjoy emotional drama.

That's a huge relief. I've actually got an option now. It sounds so exciting-I'm going to be a preschool teacher! :D

Ubnfortunately, my sister is back from the hospital. The month she's spent there hasn't done any good-she's still as anorexic as ever. This causes extra stress for my mum as well :( I wish I knew how to help my sister and my mother deal with this